Welcome to my world of darkness, obsession, passion and desire Here is a place for me, a collection of my deepest longings and obsessions, my art, my poetry...the place where I am to show who I really am. I want to share with you the same passions and interests.
Here is an introduction to myself...
Damned To Be Lou (aka Poison Girl) Years In Hell 18 Reaches Heaven at 5"5 Cries Through Hazel/Green Eyes Pulls Out Dyed Black Hair Wears Her Heart On Her Sleeve
Desires: Blood, Stars, Razorblades, Roses, Black Red, White, Innocence, Purity, Corruption, Angels, Demons The Underworld, Weed, Bacardi, Piercings, Tattoos, Girly Guys Dark, Halloween, Writing, Art, Perception Of Beauty Souls, Barbed Wire, Lace, Silk, Wings, Fisnets Corsets, The Wind, Gigs, New Rock Boots, Love
Destroys Her: Jealousy, Worthlessness, Depression, Shallow People Loneliness, Regret, Pain, Writers Block Lack of Inspiration, Closed Mindedness
Music To Her Ears: HIM, Entwine, Lacuna Coil, Scarling Jack Off Jill, Murderdolls, Evanescence, Linkin Park Lullacry, Funeral For A Friend
Idols: Christina Scabbia, Amy Lee, Riitta Heikkonen
Ville Valo, Joey Jordison, Billy Martin,
Story Of My Life
I am a 17 year old girl from the UK. I am in the upper 6th and soon to go on to University in Nottingham...hopefully.
About four years ago I started to suffer from depression. Just after I turned 15 I began to self harm, not alot at first but it got worse and worse. I had a six month break from it and on New Year 2003 I started again. This time it was awful, I would cut myself almost every day and at some points it was several times a day. The pain never went away, not even during the siz months when I didn't harm myself and even today, when I am almost 18, I am still self harming and feeling constantly depressed.I was put on Prozac in August 2003 and once my parents found out (around August time) I went to councelling but to no benefit. A month ago, on the 23rd April 2004 I attempted sucicde. I took an overdose of almost 40 asprin and anti-depressants but I failed. I am now on a new set of anti-depressants and am being refered to a psychicatric unit. One day I hope to start up some sort of community centre or my own psychiatric support for those who suffer the same way I do. I am extremely defensive of those who self harm and who suffer from depression and I have come to learn that depression is an illness that cannot be ignored and will not just go away. No one expects someone with heart disease or cancer to just "get better" on their own, so why should someone suffering from deprssion do the same. Its a mental condition, personality disorder and chemical inbalence, a depressive cannot help the way they feel and deserve as much help and anyone else who is ill. So there is a brief write up about myself and hopefully you will now understand the inspiration behind my poetry and art.
Update
Well there appears to be some problems with my photo storage and they have decided to shut it down for a while which means that pictures are going to down for a while...they should be back up soon. Sorry for the inconvenience. In the meantime I am altering the Art page for reasons that shall be disclosed there. Always Yours Poison Girl
Welcome to my world of darkness, obsession, passion and desire
